Tuesday 20 June 2017

Always Meet Your Heroes

I’ve always wanted to visit Italy – and ever since becoming a Morrissey fan – this desire has increased even more so. In the mid-2000’s, one of my favourite Morrissey records: Ringleader of the Tormentors, was recorded in Rome, so when I learned that Moz and the band are back there and appear to be recording a new album, my excitement began to crescendo.

We don't have truly old buildings where I live (not the kind of old you'd find in Europe, anyway), so mere photographic glimpses of the beautiful, intricate architecture and art found in Rome feels romantic, and exotic (well, at least to me). As a University student, I even studied Italian language (let's just say this was errr... some time ago), and while I've naturally forgotten nearly everything I learned, I remember it being a poetic language that I lamentably stumbled over grammatically at times.

I'd adore feeling surrounded by such history - this atmosphere of centuries of sonnets and paintings - centuries of muses, passions, and unrequited love - would be so dramatic and romantic. I'd certainly love to visit the Sistine Chapel, the Spanish Steps, lush fountains, hushed museums... Oh, but who am I kidding - the first place I'd check out is Pizzeria La Montecarlo...


Via 8stitches9lives on Instagram


There have been some fantastic photos appearing on Twitter and Instagram of fans meeting Morrissey in Rome. Here are just a few:


"Always meet your heroes" via seang2012 on Instagram

via @manuSsn on Twitter

Via mozzerie_dean and Matteo Contigliozzi

I am SO living vicariously through the lucky people in Rome right now... but at least where I live we do have ducklings. I feel I've become a bit of a part-time duck mum (or possibly nanny) as I go check on them. I've even named one of them Spooksy, after a run-in with a repugnant retiree and her off-leash dog. Thankfully, since then I haven't seen the woman, who wrongly believed her little lap dog chasing after wildlife was "nature taking care of itself." While she yapped more than her dog, I gently held the canine back and Spooksy got away unscathed, but I don't know why I'm calling him Spooksy, because he's brave and full of gusto every time I've seen him. In fact, in the following weeks, I can definitely say he's been the gutsiest guy at the pond.


Spooksy: "A very brave bird"

I also had a scare with Moogly, the pet spider living on my window ledge for 8 months. One evening, I entered the room and at fear of sounding too graphic, let's just say it appeared Moogly had split in half... I had no idea I could grow so attached to a spider, or perhaps it's because the image was so traumatic, but I freaked out. Luckily, it turned out Moogly was undergoing a natural process called molting, where spiders basically rip their own skeletons off to grow. This was news to me; humans don't do cool stuff like this!

The molting process, also known as ecdysis, is actually quite strenuous, and when spiders first shed their old exoskeletons, they are extremely vulnerable; the change leaves them initially delicate before they externally harden once again. Therefore, if anything touches or disturbs them, they can be damaged very easily. This metamorphosis seems metaphoric for emotional times in life: when we are in a fragile state emotionally, often during a painful growth process, a lack of emotional armour leaves us in a place where we can be hurt more easily than usual. It takes us a while to feel strong again and negativity that ravages us in these times can affect us deeply. On the other hand, unlike the molting spider, it's also possible we can be reached more profoundly than usual in a way that may help us - perhaps through the kindness of others, or perhaps through art.

You never really forget the songs that saved your life, so imagine, like those magnificently fortunate people in Rome these past few weeks, if you had the opportunity to meet Morrissey.

Can you imagine it? What would you say? How do you think it would feel?

Dickie Felton's book, The Day I Met Morrissey, can give you a window into this momentous experience: http://dickiefelton.com/books/the-day-i-met-morrissey/

The Day I Met Morrissey
Dickie Felton
Printfine Ltd, Liverpool
2009






Dickie presenting Morrissey with a copy of The Day I Met Morrissey


I was lucky enough to receive two of Dickie's books, The Day I Met Morrissey and Morrissey International Airport in the mail last month. I've just finished reading The Day I Met Morrissey and it's a tremendous read: it feels just like pulling up a chair, grabbing a pint and having a personal chat with each of the lucky fans who share their story within its pages. It's a glimpse into a moment where time stops: a taste and a touch of how it feels to meet your hero... and from these stories our hero sounds like an often-witty, ever-charming, kind, even humble and slightly shy man. Yes, while god-like, Morrissey is a human being, so building up expectations can be a tricky business (especially at time-limited events like signings, etc.) but I can honestly say after reading Dickie's book that it's clear Moz truly does care for us - and you can't help but feel touched by these interactions.

Published in 2009, The Day I Met Morrissey is 100 pages in length, and consists of interviews with Morrissey fans conducted by Felton over the two previous years. The format is slightly larger than a typical paperback to accommodate the numerous glossy photos within - and yes, a promise of loads of full-colour pictures picks up the pulse-rate of many a starry-eyed Moz admirer or collector.

Without giving too much away, the book begins with Felton's own experiences - from his initial discovery of Morrissey and the Smiths in 1988, thanks to his ripped-stockinged, spiky-haired punk rock neighbour, through to his first concert experiences in the UK during the 1990's.  He continues in captivating storyteller form, describing the times he actually manages to meet Morrissey, including adventures such as travelling across oceans to catch some tour dates in far-off places. Dickie even accomplishes snagging the holy grail of tattoos, which is - of course - Morrissey's sprawling signature scrawled across the arm, hand signed.

The book's following 30 chapters are sorted chronologically, and our journey begins in 1985 at a Wilmslow train station with a shy, shaking sixteen year old and her mum. One thing I noticed right away is that Dickie includes a "Then-and-Now" inset with a short update of each lucky storyteller's current life; it's clear how Morrissey impacts the devoted to this day - which shows us how the songs that saved our lives are never really forgotten - and stay engraved in our hearts and minds.



Fan Kenny meeting Moz outside his home in Hollywood

Snapshots in time flash by and leave us hungrily turning the pages for more as chance meetings at fragrance counters, hotels, and second-hand bookshops give us glimpses of what Morrissey - the man - is like to meet on the street. Sometimes it's mere moments, while others have the luxury of full-on conversations. As Morrissey's home base switches from UK to LA, there are some brilliant tales from The Cat And Fiddle and Sweetzer Avenue. Snippets of Mozzer's wit shine through, as he urges one fan to "get back into" cardigans, or shares his view on the current state of music: "most bands are crap".

Another aspect of the book I absolutely enjoyed was learning the stories behind some photos I recognize from over the years: from Morrissey crooning while holding up a little girl wearing pink bows in her hair, to a playful backstage pile up with a group of fans. You, the reader, might even recognize some familiar faces from shows you've attended yourself.


Young fan Winter with Moz on stage in Atlanta

Meeting Morrissey backstage in Tel Aviv

Dickie does a tremendous job of compiling and telling the stories in The Day I Met Morrissey, and I feel I will keep coming back to this book every time I crave a taste of what it could be like to meet our hero. For anyone who truly knows how it feels to be a Morrissey admirer, Felton conveys the essence of Moz fan-love - and quite beautifully - I think the book also captures a sense of how much we mean to Moz too.

I'm not sure I've ever heard of another artist who treats their fans with such kindness and gratitude as Morrissey, whether it be in face-to-face meetings, or from the stage itself. Late to the party as always, the first Morrissey concert DVD I ever watched was 25 Live, and I was completely transfixed by his interaction with his audience, accepting presents and letters; it truly felt like an actual, mutual, and lovely correspondence- he didn't just perform like many other artists do.  After watching, I remember feeling somewhat emotionally overwhelmed, but in a good way, maybe akin to a sense of catharsis. And this was simply after witnessing it all on my television screen; then when you're there in person... well you know the rest...

I've read that Morrissey sees it this way too: "the audience doesn't realize this but, I, in effect, come to see them, and my temperament depends on how they react and even how they look. I sing directly at the audience, and I look right into the audience - few singers do, I've noticed. I am addressing them with each line, and they react - one way or another - as if we are in conversation." Further, Morrissey has expressed he doesn't even like the word 'fan,' perhaps finding it a bit demeaning, and according to Mozipedia, he prefers calling us his audience, or in Smiths days, "apostles." Perhaps it's because at heart Morrissey is a music lover too - and understands the immense impact a band can have on your entire existence, particularly when this music shows up at certain times of growth, pain, or anything else that's particularly pivotal. Maybe this is why one of my favourite photos of Mozzer is him standing at the rail at a New York Dolls concert in Dublin:




Speaking of being late to the party, before I leave off, I'll share with you a poll I posted on Twitter the other week, asking my followers when they first discovered Morrissey. Admittedly, I feel a large degree of envy towards those who found him so much sooner in life than I did, yet I'm also interested in the phenomenon of fans who, like me, discovered him at a more... advanced age. I wonder if certain aspects of my life right now might be different if I had come across him sooner, and I really mean that, because I find his music, his words - have helped me understand myself - and life - more fully. That said, he came into my life at a very emotionally turbulent time, so in a sense, even though I found him at the tender age of 33 - yes - I did, in fact, grow up with him.




Here are a few of my favourite write-in responses to this poll:

"Late 20's w/ the Smiths, early 30's Solo. BUT I NEVER HEARD LYRICS BACK THEN. Rediscovered Moz 2 years ago and it has made my life!" - Pat M

"I was 15 (nearly 16) when I was captivated, nay mesmerised, by Everyday Is Like Sunday in Nineteen Eighty-Hate. It changed my life!" - Angie J Cooke (author of The World Of The Smiths And Morrissey)

"However old you are - it doesn't matter - our life is enriched for finding him at all." - Andy R

This takes me back to the featurettes in Dickie's book, updating where these fans from the 80's and 90's are now.  At the core, kind of like Moogly the molting spider - we are the same underneath; music, and especially lyrics, never really leave you.

Thank You, Morrissey.

Friday 2 June 2017

Top Ten Morrissey Video Interviews

Returning home from tour can be a blasting reality crash – it smacks you in the face and suddenly you realize you’re stumbling through the mundane trenches of everyday life rather than planning your next Morrissey concert and visiting new cities. For me, May lagged on lifelessly except for a few good points. Sadly, May was also fraught with atrocity in Manchester, as innocent people were attacked and killed in one of the only places in modern life where people feel free to enjoy themselves - and to be themselves – a concert.


People somewhat removed from traumatic events often tell others to keep their spirits up, or that pain makes one stronger, but I’ve always thought this is very easy to say from afar, and at some level, it’s perhaps a little dismissive, even if the intention is to rally the spirit.   When lives are lost, how can this bring any semblance of closure, or make sense of that which makes none? I think it’s just very hard to know what to say.

“Words, words, words,” mused doomed overthinker Hamlet, in perhaps the most minimalistic Shakespeare quote ever.  What's simple is complicated; this quote tells us nothing and everything. How stunningly vague: like all threads of words, the quote is open to interpretation.

Without words we cannot discuss and examine methods of change, and yet when someone says something, anything, against the expected, we bristle and criticize.
How many times have we twisted or misunderstood another’s words, because even neutral words arrive through unneutral eyes to an unneutral mind.
This is where the concept of the interview is quite interesting. When we admire someone, we want a glimpse of understanding their hearts or minds, but two people can hear, or read the words of the interviewee very differently. Who among us hasn't had our words twisted at some point? What pressure language and the existence of other minds and biases thrusts upon us.

Before I blaze on with my main topic of this post, I will show you a couple of the bright moments for me last month:

I wanted to make vegan cupcakes for Morrissey's birthday - and as I hadn't done fancy decorating like this in many years, I think they turned out quite nicely... 


Vegan Morrissey cupcakes


As well as being Morrissey's birthday month (for which I get far more excited than I do my own), May also means ducklings. Prior to nesting season, whenever I approached the duck pond I heard what can only be described as drama - wings flapping and major quacking. As you saw during winter, there are a lot of ducks living there, so it's assumed that with the arrival of a new brood, lack of space can be an issue. It seemed in the weeks leading up to nesting, there was mass discussion and politics involved, and I can't help but wonder if there was some sort of hierarchical decision-making system taking place. This leads me back to the question of language: the majority of humans, (incorrectly and arrogantly) believing themselves to be superior to other animals, are so narrow-minded and self-absorbed that they assume animals do not possess the ability for language, when in fact they could have fairly sophisticated linguistic structures. To our untrained ears it may sound like "Quack Quack Quack" but there could be an absolute soap opera going down! Next time, listen closely, and you'll see there are different nuances and subtleties to how many animals "speak."


Ducklings <3

For Mozzer's birthday, we also saw a new print interview published in the Daily Mail, "Inside the Head Of...", which has some pretty brilliant moments. I particularly liked the dig at Judge Judy (Moz calls her Judge Rude-y), who I've always found to be an annoying loudmouth (my stepdad used to watch her all. f'ing. afternoon. at top volume... oh the torture).  Moz also mentions that the last book he read is Poor Folk by Fydor Dostoyevsky, and the teenage Russian lit nerd that I once was (and still am a bit) now longs to chit-chat Russian lit with Moz. In the interview, Moz says he "obviously...didn't understand a word of it", which might pair nicely with my experience reading Dostoyevsky's massive tome Brothers Karamazov: it took me a year to read to page 698, at which point I abandoned it... 20 pages before the end. 

One final point about the interview is that the Mail (watch how information is channeled and funneled through to us)... censored Mozzer, refusing to print the following quote about Theresa May (via Jesse Tobias on Twitter):

Mail: Which person do you most dislike?

Morrissey: Theresa May for saying, "I fully support fox-hunting." She doesn't realize that foxes are mothers and fathers and brothers and sisters.

Free Speech is None Of Your Business?


Now that we are back on the topic of interviewing, for some time I have been meaning to follow up my blog about Morrissey Radio Interviews, with a post about video interviews. Again I offer my gratitude to my friend Janah (who I often think might be the Indonesian version of me) for sending some of these gems my way. So, for now, I bring you a Top Ten Morrissey Video Interviews, in chronological order. Enjoy:




1. Earsay 1984




Morrissey discusses his teenage years, including school, the New York Dolls fan club, the support of his mother, and how he preferred to stay in to write furiously and read, which was "quite perverse." The conversation continues about depression, celibacy, gender, and religion. His comments about religion are particularly interesting, as he talks about the oppressive nature of the Catholic Church, which didn't allow for self-expression or individuality; "people never flock to the church for a positive reason."

I roared at the part about Moz hating people at work: the fact we spend our lives with people we don't like and doing things we don't want to (oh the flashbacks of the jobs I've had): how delightfully honest. Morrissey discusses how the music press analyzes and destroys his character, and how destructive this is. He explores the vastness of the Smiths audience, as well as how the lyrics say things that are quite serious and open, but by their airing, especially with humour, become positive. The interview wraps up with Morrissey's views on vegetarianism and his writing goals.





2. Morrissey Talks About His Youth (1985)




Morrissey takes us back to Manchester to the old neighbourhoods where he grew up, some of which have since been demolished and rebuilt. He visits his Primary and Secondary schools, the latter being "sadistic" and "barbaric." He walks along streets upon streets upon streets down Kings Road, describing his life of mostly sitting, reading, and "writing furiously" with very little social life. Writing was truly his outlet... and "you also have to have a grain of hope, which is a very difficult thing to have." 





3.  Morrissey Interview Studio One (1985)





This interview is with Muriel Gray, who I think has a really fantastic interviewing chemistry with Moz.  I was also immediately transfixed by the presence of mannequins in the background, as I have sort of a creeped-out fascination with them (hence my excitement at the hotel in Houston). Topics include the music press, lyrics, vegetarianism, and success of the Smiths. The interview finishes with a visit from an astrologer (for some reason I also find the astrologer part kind of creepy...).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lF0YtZYw_HY&t=86s




4. Morrissey in Conversation (1987)




Another Muriel Gray interview: Morrissey shares quite a few laughs with her. They talk about the release of Strangeways, Here We Come and songs such as Paint A Vulgar Picture and  Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loves Me. They examine the perils (and pros) of having views that are considered strong, and how Moz feels separated from the music industry. Romance is touched upon, with tidbits about celibacy, spiritual love, and "blunderously awful" relationships. Further into the interview they discuss the political statement of being vegetarian, the books Moz reads, and how he finds most music videos unappealing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jhg6v0W1wGs&t=50s




5. Craig Kilborn (2002)




There's a bit of a gap through the 90's for longer, more in depth video interviews unless I am missing something (if so please let me know). Now we catapult ahead to 2002 - and the Craig Kilborn show.  I am heart-eyes mesmerized by this interview in particular because... Morrissey is wearing a cardigan! I had to watch it a few times to make sure I caught everything that was said because the cardigan is just so captivating... It seems like Craig admires Moz a lot even though he doesn't get all the lyrics right. The audience is blooming with love and that touches Moz. Topics include lyrics and the singing voice, being sincere and realistic, American Idol, and living in Hollywood.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5rUOR3HQhY




6. Lydverket (2002)






Another 2002 interview, this time on a Norwegian TV show. Morrissey talks about his early life and discovering music in the 60's and 70's, and how at one point he wanted to be part of the music press. This desire transformed as he grew older and he realized what he truly wanted was to be on stage, but in the 70's the singers were all very "extroverted...very sexual, very wild, and loud" as 70's rock was fairly aggressive. The conversation moves towards the early days of the Smiths, then Meat Is Murder.  The interview finishes with discussion about the useless royals (like Charles), touring, and the pop industry being full of crashing bores.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQXLD8To90Q&feature=youtu.be



7. Jonathan Ross (2004)





Simply for the iconic line, "I don't like people, to be honest" this interview is a must-watch for even the most casual Morrissey fan. Jonathan and Moz are quite hilarious together, and I have a feeling I've memorized most of this interview word-for-word. They begin by talking about Morrissey's move to America, which segues into American television, then moving on to the more serious topic of politics. The importance of hairstyles is also touched upon, and I don't think I'll ever be able to look at Wossy again without thinking, "Oscar Wilde's haircut." Wossy is on a mission to become Morrissey's friend, but Moz is breathtakingly elusive. Topics include You Are The Quarry, vegetarianism, Morrissey's fan base, the songwriting process, Autobiography, and a gladioli-wielding, slightly out-of-tune rendition of This Charming Man from Stars In Their Eyes.

Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HZDI4PIq8_s
Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=14mEx0Wa2K4



8. SXSW Show (2006)






I adore this interview, as Morrissey says so many interesting, profound things in such a short time. He hates the "lowest common denominator" and thinks pop music caters to that. The world could change if we assumed "everybody's extremely intelligent." His honesty is a key part of who he is, and his openness can make certain people uncomfortable; "if you feel as if you're a writer by compulsion then you have to write everything... if you feel dreadful, then you have to write that... You can't just present a smiling face to the world all the time." Morrissey criticizes American Idol and adds that it's quite brutal to the contestants. Celebrity is now fairly meaningless. The interview wraps up with "Fate, Life, and Beauty."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPUSDLjUi7M



9. Wrestle with Russell (2009) 





Irresistible and iconic! In what can only be described as a stunning work of art - a masterpiece, if you will - Russell's interview with Morrissey is my all-time favourite. Just look at the captured image above - seeing Morrissey laugh like this warms the heart. Rapid-fire witty discourse ensues and Russell expresses that Morrissey isn't always the easiest interviewee as he "doesn't answer questions very directly, darling." Saying something different and the art of not being formatted follow, and the conversation flows from the desire to flee reality of life in 1970's Manchester, to hairstyles, to cliches. The two vegetarians discuss animal rights: "animals look to us for protection." They also talk about making the mundane poetic, people as art, and being loved and despised as an open, forceful person. The interview finishes as Russell serenades us, wearing an oh-so-alluring and "fetching cardigan".

Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N1GRRZegHow
Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2A6CK5g7Lws



10. Larry King (2015)




A radiant and bejeweled Morrissey meets with Larry King at Bootsy Bellows on Sunset Blvd. They begin their chat with the Smiths, the Mexican fanbase, and Moz talks about how he has always wanted to be himself in an industry that doesn't normally allow people to do that. Morrissey describes his "chattering mind" and his sensitivity. He discusses his health, veganism, touring, and politics. The second part of the interview includes fan questions from social media. One question in particular moves me deeply, as Morrissey is asked about his depression: he says it is "usually the very first thing when you wake up... there is no cure... it's part of being a sensitive, open human... it's a frame of mind, a state of mind, and it's circumstantial mostly." Larry asks Moz about suicide, to which he replies, "It crosses everybody's mind... even people who mistakenly assume they are happy... it's taking control and saying no more... and it's admirable." After the interview, Morrissey sings Kiss Me A Lot.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vKBu3-jecM&t=1235s



Honourable Mentions:

I've decided to choose 2 videos for my selection of honourable mentions.  The first one was the write-in darling of the Twitter Poll I made.  The results of the poll are as follows:





1. Jools Holland (2004)




Morrissey's 2004 interview on Jools Holland was the most popular one not listed in the poll. The obvious highlight for me (being entirely phobic of visitors) is "No Jools, I refuse to open the door."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3emBbAEuXY4


2. The One Show (2009)




Obviously, no one voted for The One Show appearance as it's deeply steeped in the land of awkwardness. However, I like watching it because I see this as a perfect example of how Morrissey stands out against the bland, crashing bores of the world; he actually says something about me to my life in this desert of soullessness! The statement "I couldn't think of a job I wanted to do, so I thought I shouldn't do any" seems to palpably rattle the interviewers. Another highlight is when Adrian Chiles, who seems perpetually confused, bumbles and stumbles his way through a perplexingly out-of-touch comment about how "We'd all have to sympathize with the white collar workers, who have only ever really enjoyed success..." WHAT?! Moz weighs in, "Therefore, why sympathize with them" and you have to love him for it. I do feel for Moz here though, as he looks generally uncomfortable for much of the interview.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yiwhwuRBmk4&t=50s


I'll leave you with this photo, just posted today on Jesse Tobias' instagram: Morrissey in Rome:

via 8stitches9lives on Instagram

Forever Handsome in Rome